I woke up this morning and for a moment, I couldn’t figure out if I actually had today off or if it was all in my head and I was late for work. A wee bit of unease set in as I tried to wake up and put two and two together. Yes, I am a bit unorganized first thing in the morn!
I looked outside and was welcomed with big FAT snowflakes falling at an admirable rate – I’m guessing a 5:30 minute pace! Impressive! When I don’t have anywhere to go and can stay cuddled up inside my apt all day, it can snow cats and dogs and I don’t mind! Running? Maybe… I haven’t quite decided yet. I did notice that by the time yesterday rolled around I was really looking forward to running. It’s been a couple of months since I had that feeling and it was nice. However, I made some homemade vegetable beef soup in the crock pot.
Unfortunately, I don’t quite understand the laws of physics(?), geometry(?), whatever, and I had to transfer all the goods to my dutch oven since I didn’t even have all the ingredients in and it looked like that!
So. Last night I finally put my profile up on a dating site. I was nervous. In fact, I may have had a mild panic attack where I wondered if I would ever find love or hell, if I was even worthy of it! Seriously, my insecurities seemed to multiply and reared their ugly heads.
Yep, just like that…
I think part of my anxiety stemmed from feelings resurfacing from my younger days. Yes, some of it is still there considering this is a new process but I did pull myself together and I actually think there is some excitement brewing (coupled with knee-knocking fear of course!). I’ll keep you posted – I have a feeling this is going to be interesting!
Lastly, I’m certain my whole toe is going to fall off! Enter in the dramatics… but since I am a complete chicken, I am going to visit the doc tomorrow and let them decide. I’m probably going to have it amputated… ;)