Good gravy-Tuesday was a doozy. The air was thick with anxiety! Unfortunately, not kidding.
The morning was kind of an odd frenzy of activity in the office that seemed to breed angst. Per my MO, I soaked up all of the stress & anxiety like a sponge. I thought I was going to vomit at one point since this is also part of my MO when it comes to being overwrought with nerves.
BUT! After I calmed down a bit (leaving for lunch can help with this) I realized something. A few months ago I felt like this EVERY FREAKIN’ DAY! I can’t believe it. I mean, I recognized that I felt less shaky/panicked on the inside but somehow I pushed aside how it felt physically. So while yesterday morning was unpleasant, I am happy at the strides I have made. Yes, chemicals are part of the equation but so are some behavior modification & more exercise. This feels good.
The rest of the day was busy. I had a doctor’s appointment at 2pm & I was really proud of myself, as I got there 15 mins before my appt time. I got to the front & said my name & appt time. The clerk: “umm, your appt. was at 1:15”. Nooo!
I was relieved to see the end of the day. Some quality time on the couch was necessary along with some deep breathing and meditation. I’m not so hot on the meditation piece but I’m practicing. Also, letting go of the stress of the day – the animal section of pinterest is always helpful with this.