happy v-d

In high school, I had a group of friends who started saying, “happy v-d” and I remember thinking it was hysterical.  Clearly, my humor hasn’t changed much since then!

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Happy Valentine’s!  I hope you all are having a wonderful day.  Mine hasn’t been too shabby – ate a delish heart-shaped sugar cookie and wore my heart knee-highs.  Yup, celebrating in style, that’s me!

pinterest pic... not sure it's origin
pinterest pic… not sure it’s origin

I thought on this day of love, I could update you on my match.com shenanigans.  Online dating is really quite odd.  When I look at the website, it’s simply this buffet of men.  It’s kind of surreal, actually!  The attention is nice, and I’m talking to a couple of guys at the moment so I guess we’ll see.  The first week I was checking all the time and now other life happenings have taken precedence.

Now, I will say, my demographic appears to be with the older generation… this should have been a clue to how this was going to go:

yep, I was a huge hit
yep, I was a huge hit

Then I also got an e-mail from one guy on match and all it said was:

“Hey, I know where that picture was taken”

Yes… that’s it.  It was in reference to one of my profile pics.  Ummm… I did feel badly for him because clearly he didn’t know this kind of message is from the wrong side of the creepy tracks.  But no, I didn’t respond.  Oh the dating scene – some day I will be extremely glad when that is in my rear view window.

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Beyond my misadventures with match, I did participate in a Valentine exchange through the blog, Because I Can.  If you have never checked out her blog, you should!  Lisa cracks me up and she is a speedy gal.  Not to mention, super sweet and has a paleo recipe for almond fudge – I know… it sounds mouth-watering!  Anyway, Lisa picked names and the awesome Maggie from See Maggie got me!  On Monday, I opened this up

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Isn’t it adorable?!  Maggie read my blog and knows of my pink Brooks and that I had run a marathon.  I love it!  Such a perfect Valentine present!

Other than that, I’ve been singing the theme song to “Love Boat” all day (nope, no idea why) and spreading some valentine cheer.  My outfit was another throw back today.  Aside from my leggings, everything I had on was more than a year old.  In fact, my sweater is from 2002 and my dress is probably 5 years old.  Here is what I put together

yes... the back drop is my spare room... it still needs a bit of work!
yes… the back drop is my spare room… it still needs a bit of work!

Very comfy and warm considering I had a long sleeve t-shirt on under the dress.  Oh and no snooze button this morning!  Wahoo – 2 days in a row!

Happy Love Day friends!

this post is like my veggie soup – a whole mix of things

I woke up this morning and for a moment, I couldn’t figure out if I actually had today off or if it was all in my head and I was late for work.  A wee bit of unease set in as I tried to wake up and put two and two together.  Yes, I am a bit unorganized first thing in the morn!

I looked outside and was welcomed with big FAT snowflakes falling at an admirable rate – I’m guessing a 5:30 minute pace!  Impressive!  When I don’t have anywhere to go and can stay cuddled up inside my apt all day, it can snow cats and dogs and I don’t mind!  Running?  Maybe… I haven’t quite decided yet.  I did notice that by the time yesterday rolled around I was really looking forward to running.  It’s been a couple of months since I had that feeling and it was nice.  However, I made some homemade vegetable beef soup in the crock pot.

hmmm, a tad full...
hmmm, a tad full…

Unfortunately, I don’t quite understand the laws of physics(?), geometry(?), whatever, and I had to transfer all the goods to my dutch oven since I didn’t even have all the ingredients in and it looked like that!

So.  Last night I finally put my profile up on a dating site.  I was nervous.  In fact, I may have had a mild panic attack where I wondered if I would ever find love or hell, if I was even worthy of it!  Seriously, my insecurities seemed to multiply and reared their ugly heads.

I watched this yesterday!
I watched this yesterday!

Yep, just like that…

I think part of my anxiety stemmed from feelings resurfacing from my younger days.  Yes, some of it is still there considering this is a new process but I did pull myself together and I actually think there is some excitement brewing (coupled with knee-knocking fear of course!).  I’ll keep you posted – I have a feeling this is going to be interesting!

I'm pretty sure this movie helped spur me into action on the whole dating thing
I’m pretty sure this movie helped spur me into action on the whole dating thing

Lastly, I’m certain my whole toe is going to fall off!  Enter in the dramatics… but since I am a complete chicken, I am going to visit the doc tomorrow and let them decide.  I’m probably going to have it amputated… ;)

happy thursday things

Happy Thursday!  Super excited it’s Thursday because that means I have tomorrow off!  Wahooo!  I have so much annual leave built up I have had to take Fridays off for a wee bit now.  It has been awesome.  The only problem?  I have NO idea how I am going to go back to working a full work week!  I know, I have such horrible problems!

So, I started to write about things that make me happy on Thursdays but I think it’s been a bit since I have actually done an installment.  Here we go!

1.  I slept like a ROCK last night!

no, not this one but not a bad pic, eh?

I had put away all of my winter bedding when the temps were unseasonably warm.  But then it got COLD at night this week.  I thought I could just tough it out but finally I added two extra blankets and last night I didn’t wake up freezing my nookies off!  Amazing!  I felt so much better today – awesome what a great night sleep can do.

2.  My biggest goal today was to make 1 smart decision.  Yes, I hold myself to a very high standard.  Success!  I actually made a number of smart decisions so goal met and exceeded!  I LOVE exceeding my goals :)

3.  Really cool people commenting on my blog and giving me fantastic dating advice!  The gist of the advice from the group is to just be myself and stop being a freak.  I may have ad-libbed that last part about the freak but I think it was implied.  But a “hey Amy, get out of your head” reminder is good and at times needed!  Thanks all!

or I can be a hottie cat lady ;)

4.  Yummy potato casserole!  This has been a family favorite for as long as I can remember.  I made it on Easter and get to enjoy leftovers the whole week.  It’s super easy-peasy and I think of it as comfort food.  Here is the recipe:

1 pkg of cubed frozen hash browns

1 can of cream of chicken soup

1 cup of sour cream (I use light)

1 soup can full of milk

1 pkg of sharp cheddar – shredded

Mix the sour cream, soup and milk together in a bowl.  Put the potatoes in a 9×13 pan and then mix the wet ingredients with the potatoes.  Cook for 45 mins at 325-350.  Then sprinkle the cheese on and cook for 15 minutes more.

*This also used to call for a half a stick of butter but we cut it out and it still tastes great.  Sometimes my dad adds a little bit more sour cream and milk but I didn’t and it still tasted awesome!

5.  Angry peeps!

scary, angry symbols of childhood make me laugh

These little guys jumped right out to me with their angry lil’ faces!  I actually think peeps are fairly disgusting and haven’t eaten one in about 25 years.  Nevertheless, I had to buy them for work since my staff wants to make Peep S’mores.  Of course this sounds gross but it will be entertaining!

Well, those are my happy things for the day!  Tomorrow I am going to do my taxes (yep, I have turned procrastination into an art form), tour two different gyms – my “bat cave” gym turned out to be a bust and go for a run.  Hope to have a good update for y’all!

 

dating fun!

I have something super exciting to share in the upcoming weeks (no, it has nothing to do with getting married, having a baby or announcing a new job!).  When everything is all set then I will announce away!  But I do want to say, I am THRILLED!

Well, if that isn’t a cliffhanger!  Anyway, part of my blog theme is talking about my never-ending roller coaster of a love life.  Lately, it has been put on the back burner considering everything with my mom so I’ll catch you up on the most recent nitty-gritty.

At the end of October I was dumped.  Pretty unceremoniously I might add… it was by text message

No, this isn’t the real thing but it sucked nonetheless.  In my infinite wisdom, looking back on it, I realize the relationship was over earlier and I was holding on with an iron fist, trying to make it work.  Odd, isn’t it?  How that didn’t make it hurt any less?

At my birthday party, there was a guy hitting on me.  I really didn’t even realize it was happening!  It wasn’t until the end of the night that someone pointed it out to me but even then I wasn’t so sure.  When I finally believed it, it was nice to know there was some guy interested (even if I wasn’t interested back).  I have decided it’s probably time to jump back into the dating scene.

is this what I have to look forward to?!

While I don’t believe the dating scene is THIS grim, I do believe I have lost some of my game!  How did this happen?  Where did it go?  How do I get it back?  Suddenly I think I have forgotten how to flirt?!  AAAKKK!!  At my party, which was the first night I had been out in a long time, I was attempting to flirt and I just came across as being mean!  It wasn’t attractive!  So, I am nervous and sort of doubt dating capabilities.  What if I am really terrible?  What if I am that date where the guy walks away and FOREVER tells the story staring your’s truly as the “worst date he has ever been on?!”  Ugh, I soooo don’t want to be THAT  girl!

On Saturday, I did, indeed, have a date.  It was a great time and perhaps I wasn’t as awkward as I have (over)analyzed myself to be.  I like the guy – he is funny, cute, sweet – the whole package!

isn't this the truth?!

What’s the problem?  Well, I find myself doubting this will work out – or really work out with any guy.  I mean my luck with men is worse than my luck in other areas of my life, which is saying something!  I’m not trying to be a negative Nancy, nor am I trying to generate compliments about how great I am.  But I am trying to make sure I venture out into the dating world prepared.  I know being guarded isn’t the best way to form a bond but getting hurt isn’t high on my list of “hopes and dreams”.  Then I also wonder, is it better to be prepared for dates NOT to work out?  Or to plan like they will?  OR maybe I could stop being crazy and not overanalyze my dating life until I actually have something that constitutes a “dating life”?!

good thing I write a blog to keep me busy!

ARRRGGGG!  I swear, being a woman is complicated sometimes!  Okay, I make things more complicated.  In fact, I have a shirt someone gave me that says, “I make matters worse”.  Excellent, eh?  Really what it comes down to is I feel like I am jumping back in a lake and I need to learn to swim again.  At the same time, I don’t want to make the same mistakes I made in my past relationships.

So advice?  How do I get my game back?  Should I even try?  I will say one thing I have going for me this time around (as far as dating re-entry) is I am much less self-conscious and much more myself.  A friend gave me some good advice yesterday.  She said, “if you are not yourself now, when the real you starts coming out the guy isn’t going to know who he is dating or will miss the version he fell for in the first place.  Which wasn’t YOU.  Then you get hurt anyway.”  Oh yeah.  Good point.  I have also given myself time to recover from the former relationship – a pretty smart move for me.  I know I sound more than slightly neurotic – I think it’s just nerves.  Well, okay, part of it’s who I am, haha!

So, friends, I’ll take any words of wisdom here!  Lay it on me!

edited: oops!  All 3 funny pics come from someecards.com