First thing, I will only utilize the third person narrative in my titles for the upcoming series. I can’t do it for entire blog post since I would feel slightly pretentious. Just wanted to get the record straight. Also, this is the first in what is going to be quite the series/saga, so prepare yourselves to see variations of this title for a few weeks.
A month ago, I put in my resignation. Way back in the day, I detailed how it was time to make some major life changes. In fact, I’ve touched on this in multiple posts but in truth turning these words into a reality was difficult. I got sidetracked by work and my own anxiety and failed to make any real progress toward the life changes. After the holidays, I was more committed than ever to move back to WA or OR to be closer to my family.
Officemate had also been on the hunt for a change and moved away in Feb sans job, although one hovered on the horizon. Maybe this was what gave me a touch of courage. Or maybe it was that I was allowing too many excuses get in the way of making a final decision. Whatever it was, I said I was going to move and started job searching.
Well, I’m still job searching. When I realized job searching is/was more difficult from 2500 miles away than I anticipated, especially when changing fields all together, I blurted out I was moving with or without a job. I’m certain this was a higher power taking over the wheel since I’m still not sure how these words came out of my mouth. I’m typically more cautious than this. Three days later I put in my resignation and picked my last of work date. June 14th.
Fast forward to today and I still don’t have a job and moving day has been moved up to the 11th. Thankfully, my fam is willing to take Simon and I in as
(freeloaders) guests until I land a job, which I fully plan on it only being at the most a month. And no, I don’t have any plans to be the family mooch, I’ll be a contributing member! Also today, I’m taking another huge step and am (FINALLY) securing my moving apparatus. Seriously, this is some nerve-wracking business! I always planned on hiring a company to load up and move all of my stuff but when it comes down to the dollars and cents, apparently, I’m cheap. Or completely naive – both on what it would cost to get back to the other side of the country and to how much work is in front of me. But whatever, it’s done.
It’s weird what steps seem so huge to me. The first, was making the decision in the first place. This one is obvious. The second was the resignation in writing, again pretty clear why this was a big deal. But the following have sent me through a whirlwind of nerves: picking my last day of work (it was kind of in my control), setting the date and any details for my farewell gig at work, ordering my moving contraption, selling stuff online (still need to do), trying to figure out how to transport Simon in the car… there are more. All of these feel so final and it’s a tad overwhelming. I really feel as though I have absolutely NO IDEA what I’m doing. Hence the waiting until the last minute on many of these.
So, today is a good step. I called my dad for advice because “cubic feet this and cubic feet that” were really getting confusing and I needed some confirmation I was making sound decisions. I even went ahead and secured my storage at a facility in WA, so at least this was a step in the right direction! Simon has a giant “pack ‘n play” for his car travels which I’ve set out so he can get used to it, and I’ve scheduled my last hair appt with my favorite stylist <– this was important! I still have one last doc visit to schedule, Simon needs to see the vet, visit friends, get my car fixed, because surprise! my AC doesn’t work! Then there is that pesky packing. I tremble a bit thinking about it. I know I will pull it together in the end – it’s the German way. In the meantime, I’ve got lavender/lemon essential oils going in my diffuser to ease my and Simon’s anxiety. I swear, my little guy has picked up on it and is freaking out right along with me. We are a pair!
More of the moving saga to come…