I’ve been silent on this here site for the last week. There were a number of reasons and now I’m ready to jump back into the writing deal. I do enjoy it so.
Last week, I ran on Monday. I really believed it would be a good run. It wasn’t. It dampened my spirits a bit as I had high hopes. Then I took a minor hiatus until Saturday where I walk/ran (mostly walked) 7.5 miles. It was hot. It was hard. The walk/run combo was for the first mile and after that I just decided to put in the mileage in the form of walking. This was because the running part so completely sucked that I couldn’t stand it. Yep, the whole 4 day off deal didn’t help, nor did the hanging out on my buns prior to getting outside but still, I thought it would be easier.The walk was challenging as I made sure to hit some really steep hills to make up for the lack of running. Sunday, I was fairly certain, was going to be easier. After all, I got the “first day back” lazy legs out of the way so I was set. Hmm – not so much. At this point, I admitted to myself that running is just hard.
I’ve spent some time romanticizing my past running abilities. In my brain, I envision a gazelle-like state; regularly running around without a care in the world because it was easy. Clearly, my imagination is vivid and totally inaccurate! When I turn off the filter, I can remember how hard those runs were – it just doesn’t feel like it now when I have to walk up yet another hill. I also find there are times when I’m bored but I think this is related to the constant thought in my brain, “this is hard, this is hard, this is hard”.
Anyway, Sunday was a 5 miler and again not pretty. But since the above conversation was going on in my head, I started saying, “tomorrow will be easier”. Monday, I hit the pavement again. Not exactly easier. My legs felt lead-like. I walk/ran 3.5 miles and I dare say, I ran more than I walked. Hooray. Using my keen over-analyzing abilities, I recognize dehydration is playing a role in these disappointing runs. My handheld pulls on my (sort of still) dislocated thumb so I leave it home thinking I’ve been drinking enough during the day to get me through. I love denial!
I decided to give the RW Run Streak a shot. My runs will only get better and legs stronger if I add a heaping helping of consistency into the mix. I have no idea if I will follow through on it – I’ve tried before. But it’s an interesting challenge and even if I don’t make it everyday, it will still help. Tonight I will only run a mile and then do a strength video. I’m going to get swoll.