More entertainment for all of you! We can discuss my (not so great) love life. Sometimes my (lack of a) love life bothers me but lucky you, today is not that day.
So, when I was a wee young thing, I always swore I wasn’t going to get married until I was 30. I have no idea where this came from but I wasn’t joking around. It wasn’t that I didn’t want a family – quite the opposite. But I think even when I was a youngster, I knew that I wanted to take a different path.
Now, fast forward a couple of years and I have reached and passed 30. As I may have mentioned before, I’m a bit of a late bloomer and relationships always seem overly complicated for me. I don’t know how or why – am I a poor communicator? Do I lack confidence? Is there something wrong with me?
These are usually the questions I ask myself when I am going through (what is very similar to teen angst) men troubles. What it boils down to though is TIMING. What a beast. I never really realized just how crazy important timing really was/is. Maybe I’m not ready for a relationship. Maybe he isn’t. Maybe life situations are complicated. Whatever the obstacle was/is has resulted in me not quite finding Mr. Right as of yet.
So, what am I going to do about it? I’ve finally decided I’m going to do the online gig. Yep… I am crazy nervous. I have recently read some major horror stories about online dating. Men that don’t exist, men that are jerk faces – the stories seem to continue. Once the floodgate has been opened – WHOOOOSH – all I hear are the negative stories.
But I do have friends who have met their significant others online and it’s working out very well. One friend said it to me this way, “it’s just like meeting someone in a bar – it’s just a different avenue initially”. Gotcha… well, that helps. But I’m different. I often feel like Murphy’s Law incarnate. Not to mention, my previous dating hasn’t gone all that great and I am starting to wonder if my man really was hit by a truck
The other part that makes me nervous is remember the aforementioned subject of timing? Yeah, well, my timing sucks. As in completely plumb terrible! So, I have this feeling of impending doom. Or at least a feeling of impending craziness. I’m not sure I am ready for it! People always say, “no, this is the fun part!” Umm… no, I’ve done it… a lot.
There you go… the adventure will begin after the New Year. If any of you have advice for me, I would love to hear it. If you know of a positive story, I would really like to hear that too. I could also use a bit of a boost. I am pretty sure the cartoon below depicts me quite well so this whole online dating thing is going to be interesting.
I’ll keep you posted – especially if there is any entertainment value!